Hihi Earthlings :} .
Just had a converstion with him ,
Omgxzxzxz ! I said those things that I never thought I would said it to him .
It hurts a hell lot manxzxz ._.
I wondered how could I manage to said that without crying .
It feels like just another stab in my heart .
I felt normal , perfectly fine , I guess.?
I think I have adapted to it already .
My heart's numb already ,
I cannot feel any pain anymore .
I dont know whye ,
But seriously ,
I personally feels that dying is better ..
Im better off dead ._.
I thought he was going to ignore me for a period of time ):
I was scared that he was never going to talk to me anymore ._.
Then I suddenly told him something ,
It really breaks my heart .
I didnt know I have thh courage to tell him those ._.
He will never know how important he is to me .
He will never know how much I still love him .
He will never know how I lived everyday of my life without him .
He will never know..Omg , Now I know Im not worthy of him ):
I used to take everything for granted .
I used to say that ignoring him awhile wont hurt .
I used to think he was a nuisance .
I never thought that by not informing him whatt Im doing ,
Will cause him to worry so much for me..
Now no matter whatt I do to attract his attention ,
He will never do thh same again..
I rather he care for me ,
then he not caring for me now ):
Sorry , I know you're a good guy .
I shouldnt be clinging on you ,
I should let you go .
But I just cant ..
I dont know whye seriously .
Can anyone tell me whye.?!
Hais , if I continue type .
I will cry like some siao zhabor .
I think I shall stop here ..
Byebye Earthlings .
Cherish your loved ones ,
before they are gone .
Dont be like me ,
Regretting now .
I hate this feeling :/ .
I hate myself :/ .
I hate ME .
{♥} STELLA .
tellmeyouloveme.
{♥} Love hurts , Life sucks .